More Presence

It is Spring Break and the family is down in Pensacola, FL. We are down here to finally lay my Father-in-Law to rest at Barrancas National Cemetery. We will be down here for a week enjoying our time on the beach with many of my wife’s friends and family.

It is the first day. We are not at the beach yet, so I have a little time to write. Or at least I think I do. The words are not coming. I am allowing myself to be distracted and using it as a sad excuse for my inability to put my thoughts into words that make sense.. This struggle is self-induced as my mind is not fully into what I am doing.

Leaving for a week comes with a cost. I think of all the other things I could be doing. This is a problem. If I am thinking about all the other things, then I am not present here. As important as I believe some of these tasks to be, they really are not compared to being present. I can’t bring this unnecessary baggage with me on this trip. If I do, I will not be able to enjoy myself. I will not be able to be here wholly for my family.

More presence. I must calm my mind and remember why I am here. This week, my schedules and plans do not matter. Can my mind be here and not somewhere else? I don’t know, but it is something I will be working on this week.

2 Comments

  1. “Being present” to me is saying to “be in the moment “— oh how we all struggle with that. Life throws us so many distractions and we are left to prioritize them to our own way. Your dedication to your structured life is commendable but being flexible is essential to living a balanced life. I have read that after a rest music is sweeter- that’s why there is a rest symbol in music. Athletes often take a rest day day after they’ve trained hard for an event to allow their muscles to be ready for a big push. I often find myself struggling to remember some important piece of info n the harder I try the more elusive it seems— then i let it go a few moments n if comes crashing back to me in clarity!
    Yes we can push too hard – take your pack off for a few days Tony- you will be giving your family and yourself a wonderful gift if you live in the moments of this upcoming week! ❤️

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